few lighter ones perhaps:
whom do we ask forgiveness when we hate ourselves?"
too old to learn, always too old to be taught."
is honesty of purpose in virility."
ask, what is conceivable when we cannot conceive even what we are conceiving?"
mocking Ape, the smiling God, both beckon and will endow."
is going to be some free-form interpreting. What does the Ape of Thoth represent?
The smiling God calls to mind images of the happy Buddha, how did he get so happy?
Two roads to endowment call, what do you think the paths being offered are? Which
would you take? I think, perhaps, they can be tread together.
Here is how my
interpretation is going to run for now, but this is more construction than anything
else since the quotation leaves so much room for thought and creativity. The Ape
of Thoth is often thought of as human reason. It follows Thoth, the god of wisdom,
mimicking his divine wisdom with its weak play-acting. Here, however, the Ape
isn't playacting but rather "mocking" divine wisdom. The smiling God,
as I mentioned, I think of in terms of a smiling Buddha. Why does the Buddha smile?
Because it has achieved releasement from the passions, desires and ties of the
world and in so doing arrived at the freedom of Nothingness.
Here, then, we
have two paths, both beckoning and both with something to give. One is the ongoing
activity of human reason, the play of interpretations and constructs, which admits,
nonetheless to its limitations and perspectival nature in a complete rejection
and mockery of the very concept of a divine wisdom which would have access to
some immortal absolute objective "Truth". We have the play of thought
but no real absolute knowledge. In terms of this path I think about the saying
"If a fool would but persist in his foolishness he would become wise."
Reason can weave and weave, and eventually in the course of its very spinning
its activity will become indiscernible from absolute stillness, just so long as
all weaving is in mockery of Thoth. Or, the other path, you can opt for the path
of the mystic and still thought directly. In a way, you have the choice between
excitatory and inhibitory gnosis both of which can lead eventually to the achievement
of Kia, the state of Neither-Neither.